Back to the Daily Grind

Well my summer of bliss has ended. I have been back to work for two weeks. I did shed a few tears leaving my little girl in the hands of our babysitter, but what is a working women to do.  I was prepared. I had about 60 oz in the freezer, and I really only pumped once a day for about 5 weeks. I was a good working mom, I made all her bottles ready to go. I made five four ounce bottles!!! That was definitely overkill!! She only drank three bottles, and only three ounces out of them.  Even with all my knowledge my momma brain tends to trump my knowledge on the subject. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I've have Pediatricians ask me why their 6 month old babies want to breastfeed so much. I have to ask them if they have started giving them food. The answer was no surprisingly ..." add food" I would say.  I would think " wow, how did she not know that?" Now I know.. she was thinking  with her mom brain. Mom brains are always the best brains to think with, its important to use your instincts. Well I know that a exclusively breastfed baby isn't going to take more than three oz at a feed especially at 10weeks, but I still made all those bottles. OWELL :)
So adding REAL pumping to the day is ALOT of work! I am not going to lie, sitting at home and breastfeeding is so much easier than any other form of feeding, but that's just my humble opinion. I pump about 20-25 oz in 12 hrs. Even though I am good with pumping, I still have a little voice in the back of my head saying "what if you run out!!!!!!!" I wonder if that "Mother Guilt" will ever be silenced? I was able to stay home with my son for 15 months and I remember thinking " should I be working?" Maybe I'll never be happy with my work choices, but I do find comfort in the fact that my little one is only breast milk fed. I like to think that even though I am not the one always feeding her, she remembers me when she drinks her breast milk.
Being back at work, does remind me of how much I love to teach breastfeeding education and help moms latch their new little ones. I now have a very fresh memory of those sore nipples and the burning pain of a c-section. I think I'm a little more delicate with the moms now.
My husband has been in charge of the kids from 3:30-10:00pm  while I am at work, and has done such a wonderful job. This is all new to him, and he has been fantastic. When I think of how much work the two of us have to put into these two kids, it really does make me realize how lucky I am.  He loves taking care of our kids and putting the baby to sleep. If I could lend him out to all those single moms out their I would. Those are the moms that should right books on how to jungle work and kids. Whatever their secrets are, we should all be doing.
So, so far so good. We have many many weeks and months to go, but I'm making it so far.